Feeling guilty

Week 3 already!

I have had a really good week on the exercise front and food intake.  Ive stuck to my daily calorie allowance and stuck to my half marathon training plan.....then it all went wrong last night.  Thought I would treat myself to some wine and chocolate as a bit of a cheat meal.  However I went a bit OTT!  I'm so embarrassed to admit this but this is what i consumed:-

650ml of Rose Wine
100g bar of Galaxy chocolate with caramelised hazelnuts
25g bag of Skips (don't even like skips!)
2 slices of cheese on toast with Worcestershire sauce and red sauce (this tasted so good!)

Thing is I wasn't even hungry, I was bored and had had a drink.  I don't know why I do it?  I know drinking makes me eat but come on!!  Anyway I've felt really fat and guilty today which is never a good thing as I really don't want bad emotions linked with food.

Anyway today is a new day, although I've not had enough calories which wasn't on purpose Ive just ate a little too well.  Whilst writing this I've ate a handful of raspberries and mixed nuts to boost the cals, will log them in a bit on mfp.

Running is going well, although I still think daily that I am never going to be able to run a half marathon, it is just such a long way and I can't get my head around actually doing it.  I keep thinking that I'm not even half way through my training plan so I need to give it time.  Tomorrow I am running home from work again as I need to fit it in around my husband's work shifts and also we are off to Lego Land (yay) for a little break and then to Devon so not sure how I'm going to fit it all in.  I think the Hotel has a gym so I might do a run there on the Wednesday night, although I really hate the treadmill.

So here is this weeks stats then pictures:-

Weight:  8st 2.6 = down 0.8lb
BMI:  20.6 = down 0.1%
Fat: 19.9% = down 0.3%
Water:  52.9 = up 0.2%  (I don't know whether this is good or bad, will have to read up on it)

Bust:  34 = STS
Under Bust:  29 = STS
Bicep:  10 = STS
Wrist:  5.5 = STS
Waist:  27 = STS
Belly:  32.5 = STS
Hips:  34 = STS
Thigh:  20.5 = down 0.25

So where I lost that 0.8lbs I don't know but the reduction in Fat makes me think that I have lost fat.  I did think that it is probably a bit much to expect big reduction in measurements when I'm doing it weekly.

Here are pics:-

I have huge love handles!

how attractive are my stretchmarks! :(

Looking bloated again?

Humph

Don't look as bloated here?

I have been doing some thinking recently and wonder "when will I be happy?"  I suppose I always thought that 8st was a low weight and I would never weigh that, especially as I have struggled with weight loss and body image for such a long time and now I'm here (and have done it the healthy way) and I'm sort of happy but when I look at the pictures I think I still could do with losing another good couple of lbs and need to tone up seriously, but is it possible?  I've had two children I shouldn't expect to have a toned stomach should I?  Will ponder this more, until next week...